sigh~
was feeling terrible today. Not bcoz of any trivial matters nor was it bcoz of any major issues. just feeling faint,feverish. faints....how m i suppose to handle de final exams in this condition when im sick for over a week le?
budden izzit true that de sayin of a blessing in disguise really exist? well,mayb.
thru this torturin one week and over, im blessed though. to realise how much ppl ard me lurve me. not family. not relatives. but people whom i din expect to show that much concern and love for me. it make me realised how loved i was. i remembered forever this sentence:"you have too much love in your life. you don't need mine further. " this sentence makes me wonder...do i really hav too much love showered towards me. this,i might not know, sumtyms, being the person in dat shoes,i wouldnt know, i couldnt tell ryte? but love is a wonderful feeling.isnt it? of coz must hav other factors involved la. budden...sumhw i kn. sum love cannot be repay. not in this life. next life? perhaps. but faints. why bother bout de past of future when u dunkn wads gonna happen? isnt wad de mst impt thing is de present,now?
i guess i have to apologise. . . to those i din expect to shower me with love. not dat i dun wan or reject or refuse to accept this gift. but, like i said,i wouldnt be able to repay u guys. i do not want to let u wait. i hav made my stand clear. isnt it not? i feel so bad...when i din kn wad i hav done to deserve such lurv frm u guys. i realy have no idea. sumone enlighten me pls. wad do u guys see in me? my stand now is still de same. - i dont like anybody . for now. yet nobody gives up. in such situation, i rather not see de naruto spirit in u guys. but no matter wad,im so glad. really i do. to be able to know u guys. really is my blessings. i've make it clear. those who are close to me,ur prob is my prob.this is cliche but! hey,u can't avoid.when i need a helpin hand, u all were alwaes dere. be it male or female. friends. forever friends. so when it is ur turn, dun turn me down.

todae's horoscope warned me of sumtik:
Someone whom you have known for a long time may disappear from your life, Joyce, and this could leave you feeling somewhat disoriented and out of focus. Your ideas of truth, honor, ethics, and moral principles might require some revision in light of recent events, and a change of profession might be looming on the horizon. On the positive side: you are in the process of transcending your limitations, so the sky's the limit. Follow your heart.

who's gonna disppear frm my life? pls don't! i don't anyhow plead people until i really have no naruto spirit in me. budden dis situation,i dunkn whether to choose to believe it anot. no matter who are you,i must hav been very close to u. no matter wad is ur gender. no matter how u look. don't. don't disappear from my life. not bcoz i may be lost. but if u're someone i hav known for a long time,it hurts. one word saes it all. hurt. do u kn de pain of losin sumone important or precious to u? i experienced it quite a number of times and do not wished to experience the pain again. follow my heart? my heart is sick. just like my whole body. i hav been sick for over a week and i dunkn hw to cure it. sae im stubborn. sae im obstinate or wadever u wan. i dont wanna see a doc nor do i wanna eat any medicine. nobody can change my mind once i hav firmly set on it. but no matter wad, i really hope, whoever u are, dun disappear from my life..... promise me....