:: Guardian angel ::

2008-04-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

IM BACK!!
lolx.. have been so long since i have updated this bloggie of mine..
well, so much to tell yet so little to pen down.
don't really want to bored readers with such specific details..
had been working[to others]/ running errands for my relatives and falling sick[as usual] for weeks. once again i repeat: I DIDN"T DISAPPEAR!
i tried comin online after i ended two continuous weeks of non-stop work but my lappie got angry with me and din allow me to switch it on. furthermore i didnt hav the time to get it fix and stuffs.

aniwae, went to the army museum [due to my curiosity] with wj on thurs. forgotten which thurs is it. last week i presume. lol.. we have had the whole museum to us alone. went there with much questions that was bombarded to wj from me.. lol.. aniwae, im back! quite a nice feeling to be back to the cyberworld. hope lappie doesnt get angry with me for neglecting it again. =x

this si ac de picture was not taken by me. lol.. a supposed to be boat ends up 'flying'. what great camera skills huh? =.=

2008-03-18T23:27:00.000-07:00

Okie,great. few more mins before results are released. goodie. im so NOT gonna wait till midnight. gonna have my sweet dreams before i face any nightmares to come. lolx.. now that i wanted to. but results isn't something i like to anticipate much. esp this sem.
just got home and im so dead beat. guess im still adapting to the time. have to tell myself its just gonna be two continuous week like this. okie. it isn't of much help by saying that. oh well, i guess, i just have to make the best out of everything. if not, something. lolx. .
guess im gonna hit the sacks and join me in lala land!
ciao!

As far as seduction is concerned, Joyce, you know that the more mysterious aspects of your personality are your most important assets. Today, you may exercise your "seductive powers" in your personal life. However, don't pretend to be hiding something you really haven't got. You should try and put forward the best aspects of your personality, if you really want to get what you desire...

okie..wth? =.= dots. no comments.
[horoscope can sometimes be so hilarious. =.= ]

2008-03-17T00:30:00.000-07:00

I'm glad i've made the correct decision.
went to meet up with some of my dearest OP ex-colleagues..
Nonetheless, jeremy mummy; grace ; bearbear; joyce twin; sheeren;huimin;jaslyn and weebin [came after i left OP] was simply great.
watched The spiderwrick chronicles. Not a bad idea for a movie, kindna kiddish, very fantasy [duh] some parts can be very disgusting, some very exciting, some very fascinating, some very hilarious, some very cute, some very lame, some very shocking [partly because of the sound effects bahx.]
think that's about it. lolx.. ending very...erm... abit lame la actually..perhaps the whole group of us, being 17 and above [im the youngest =.=], we expect and tend to think more. kids have a simpler mind [and that can be an envy to some of us] .

anywae, had a great time and yup. the next day..gosh. i don't wanna think about it. guess that's for now. ciao!

2008-03-16T23:14:00.000-07:00

wootz.
had a very tired day today. though its just plain, boring,dull working day;
but din sleep much yesterday. dots.
after work went to find my beloved little cousin at her house and play with her. its sort of like my daily routine for sundays. lolx.. kindna entertainin and energy-draining...
so yup. nothing much next.
wonder if i should attend tomorrow.. hmmm...

You will find that your emotions are more peaceful and easy to control today, Joyce. It is almost as if you are merging with the energy around you. The one thing to be careful of, however, is indecision. You may find that when it comes to taking action on something, you just aren't sure which way to move. You might be better off just laying low today and sitting with your feelings. Make your big move some other day.

hmmx..indeed indeed...

2008-03-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

company jie to her school today, supposedly intending to give the person in charge the photo she is supposed to give so long ago, but in the end, spending about 1 hour and 45 mins to queenstown and ended up with the results being: she left the office and the office is closed.
=.= faints! and we gonna declare war on bus 51 there! we waited so long under the hot, scorching sun just to board the bus and its only like 3 busstop away from queenstown mrt.... argh... we are like sun-burning or gona get heat stroke.. =.=
weird weather.

but during late afternoon and evening time can make up of our loss.
book tickets for step up 2 at 9.15pm. meanwhile we went for dinner at ajisan [as usual] and head towards our piercing session. lol.. quite a nice experience since my previous experience was when i was very young...about..pri 1? about there...

anyway, step up 2 rocks!! lolx..guess i dun hav to mention it twice. its expected to be..
lolx... especially when you're a dancer yourself and you watch it. can empathize with them and wootz. nice. had a nice time with jie there.. i wonder if there's a part 3? lol!!
saw jaslyn my beloved ex-colleage there too. step up 2 brought us back together! lol...after quite some time since i left the hospital.. neat. neat. (:

P.S Its not about what skool or what neighbood u're from. Its not about what you've got, but what you've make up from what you've got (:

2008-03-14T04:19:00.000-07:00

whoo hoo..
finally the sun is back!
lol..
gonna enjoy the outing tmr regardless....
gonna watch drama serial.. ciao.

2008-03-13T22:13:00.000-07:00

To: Whoever the person is..

just wanted to clarify, and hopefully you aren't cowardly enough not to mention your name.
my blog aren't here for such a person like you to post such comments. Thank-you but i know they are just false truths. Next, my blog doesn't exist to show people how pitiful i am for i am not, and my conscience is clear. The intuition of linking you and madass together crossed my mind. Whatever the reason is for you to do such thing, i have no idea.Just hope you have better things to do. Clearly you know me and link my blog address from somewhere.. Don't be a dork and just tell me who you are. [if your courage aren't hiding somewhere else.] If you think by doing this, i would really turn emo and fret about it, think twice. or thrice. you are getting nowhere by doing all this.
so, be gone.

2008-03-13T13:33:00.000-07:00

People aren't going to want to be quite as intense as you may require today, Joyce. The atmosphere is light and airy, and you may find that no one is in the mood to delve as deep as you may want to go. Use this day to relax and let go of control for a while. Take deep breaths and long walks in the open air. Go for a bike ride or walk. There are apt to be crazy unexpected events cropping up throughout the day, so be prepared for surprises.

surprises? no thank you... =.=
expected, it rain yet again..
had the perfect cute cute Pon and Zi picture to describe it.

isn't it simply sHoo cute?! lol..
fall in lurve with Pon and Zi.. aww man!! lol.. thought they are emo cartoons, but... who cares.. they are cute!! lol..
this is my last week to enjoy and it had to rain the whole week? wad crappy, shitty weather is this?! =.=

2008-03-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

fell in lurve with this emo cartoon. lolx.. so cute.. Pon and Zi they call it.
though it belongs to the emo category.. budden its kindna cute.. emo until so cute. lolx..
wad m i doin now? gettin emo? =.=

well,at least results not release tmr.. if not i definitely will blame everything on the number 13... -.-'''
oh well... everything is postpone.. forget it then. i doubt i would have the anticipation for it le.. u know that kindna feeling when.. hmm.. u have this drive, this excitement in you, whereby you really wanna do this certain thing, or wanna go this certain place?
if u postpone it, the drive, de feeling, de feel is no longer there right... so yup. that's what im feeling right now. sigh. all for nothing.

ciao.

2008-03-12T04:17:00.000-07:00

Nothing will escape your attention today, Joyce, and you will find that your sixth sense is right on target. Your mind is razor sharp and your emotions are extra sensitive. You will move through this day with your radar fully intact. You are like a detective cutting through to the core of every issue. You can get quite a bit accomplished with very little effort. Things will naturally flow your way.

On the contrary in fact. Today was the worst day i've ever had ever since giddiness the monster overwhelmed me about one week ago. faints. has been about one week.
furthermore, the rain hasn't been helping me at all! in fact, i so much wanted to go to the army museum tomorrow..
now everything .is to be postponed... faints!!
my leap years, army museum... sigh sigh sigh...
rain! you aren't helping !!
tomorrow is the 13th and i knew with immediate effects that 13 is just not my number at all! my jinx number! to be specific.. .=.=
sigh.. lots of stuffs that is sickening so heartbreakening usually happen on the 13th. sigh..
postpone? postpone till when? im not free the next week! by that time, will leap years still be showing?
sigh, there goes everything.....................
i hate 13!!

2008-03-11T12:59:00.000-07:00

Think about old times and people in your past whom you have had strong connections with, Joyce. Remember the good times you shared with people of common interests and similar recreational hobbies. Feel free to be sentimental and mushy. Mend bridges and bring oil to sticky issues. Be harmonious with the people and situations around you. World peace begins with you. Incorporate more of this ideal into your daily life.

i am feeling so sick.. faints.. felt giddy for the past few days ever since insomnia is getting better.. =.= thought i could just ignore it.. but it proves me wrong today.. felt so giddy!!
furthermore the rain isn't helping me at all!!
dear dear rain rain go away, come again some other day, joy joy here wanna get well... =.=
how to have strong connections with friends when i have become a patient myself?
no wonder i am so sick and tired of hospital and medicine stuffs..life is kind of like being surrounded by them!!
AH CHOO! now i have got the flu.. rain rain... you only know how to bully me....=.=
gonna do some research now.. ah choo! ciao!

2008-03-11T02:20:00.000-07:00

oww man.. aunt isn't allowin me to enjoy my holidays.. well.. she uses a statement rather than a question...im left with no choice.. sigh..
so this week is the last week for me to enjoy my holidays le bahx...aunt uses a statement to make me work...ohh well... can i sae no? faints.. nvm...

its nothing much..really nothing much.. im immune to all these stuffs..so wads de big deal.. sigh..
screw it.. pi pa ni ge long deng dong ar...

2008-03-10T22:51:00.000-07:00

whoo hoo. one sentence: so much for nothing at all.

anyway, wasn't feeling that great when i woke up.
either i've got this insomnia problem or i would get this giddiness thingy overwhelming me when i sleep. if this is such a case, i rather lose my sleep. having the room spinning and the world going round and round around my small head is kindna texting leh.. lol.. wonder though, what can "cure" it... hmm . . .

kindna lost in my own comfort zone, kindna lost in my own world,
dont hav a compass, don hav a map.
walking around aimlessly. thinking,
what is the world coming to? or rather,
what is MY world coming to/ going to be?
my world, my future, my path.
i wan to find my way back into lurve...do i?
boar suggested a bf.. do i wan one?
lol..some words are jus opinions. each and every individual has their very own thinking, their very own style.
can be envious of people at times, who wouldn't?
i wun envy them for their money. [ i dun really giv a shit about it. ]
perhaps perhaps perhaps.
daddy's love? lurve? happiness?
perhaps perhaps perhaps.
is my life really full of gnirob stuffs? i definitely hope not..
what do i really want then? do i myself know?
what do you want then,peeps? do you yourself know?

hmm... gnirob gnirob gnirob....

2008-03-09T07:25:00.000-07:00

If you meet someone new now, Joyce, make sure you break him or her in gradually. Don't spill all the beans at once. Gradually let them warm up to your intense and emotional nature before you hit them with it full force. People are going to need their space, so make sure you allow enough room for their emotional and physical freedom. Think about possibly taking a long trip or mini-vacation of some sort.

wow. surprisingly, i did meet someone new today.. lol..
went to work as usual today.. did the same " gnirob" stuffs.. [try figure out that word!]
after work kindna "rushed" back to serangoon macs to meet up with aaron and glenn. its one hour bus journey.. so..kind of late... hehex..
so..yea.. had a new experience today totally..
frankly speaking, initially, i was quite reluctant to meet up today. partly because of the main reason in meeting, secondly coz my energy is totally drained from sat's family day and sun mornin's work and trip to lib...sianzation~
but.. hmm..guess im kind of glad i did meet up eventually. was quite a hmm.. erm.. lame, sick, crazy, hilarious, humorous, siao , insane, "cold" kind of conversation. lol..
well, its..hmm..yea.. something i din really expect it to be.. basically, commandos gave me this, cold[not lame], strict, book-by-book kind of attitude that simply puts people off. but im surprised yet glad, glenn isn't so. yea, quoted from glenn; "they simply wears their mask during that situation" [think i added few of my own words.. cant rmb the exact words..]
nevertheless, hmm.. glad? new experience, new friend.
hmm..yea.. depends, depends, depends.. lol!!
well, just that its my first meeting with him..so i wouldn't really express everything out, word by word. so had a safety invisible wall in front of me, opp him diagonally.. pardon me but i'm still in my comfort zone.
well oh well.. one word for today's meeting: neat.

PS. depends is not my fav phrase! lolx..

2008-03-08T23:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN'S DAY!!
[ to all females, all girls, all ladies, all women, all aunties,all ah mas!]

phew.. had a long day today..
had this NHG [National health Group] family day at downtown east..
half of my whole family went...13 of us.. inclusive of uncles,aunts, cousins, grandmum,mum,sis.
the sun is just scorching hot!!
was a tour guide for my relatives and cousins when we head towards escape.. cousin and friend went to enjoy themselves there. [photographer as well. phew. wad a relief.]
wild wild wet was just too full to allow any more heads in. [Phew. ano relief.. ]
after that we head back to wars de D'marquee there for a rest.. and then it became too freezing cold inside coz of the air-con. =.=
become cam whore with little cousins coz they are fascinated at seeing their own faces in the cam. kids are forever kids. SHoo kawaii!
Juz-Be from superband'07 was there too.. enjoyed their performance much.
before becoming ice cubes, we decided to split into two groups to head towards pasir ris park; for the kids to play at the seaside.
i waited for cousin and friend with mum and uncle for the second trip there via my goddad's car.
cousin,frien and i went to climb the spider web. [will post this pic when i got hold of it.]
afraid of heights but i cant be a spoilsport! gosh. lolx.. i made it till the top[with much screaming and such of coz...]
went in search for kite but end up playin at the playground.. childhood deprived huh.? lolx..
we head on towards the "provision" shop to search for kites. found and of coz,bought one.
on the way to and fro,saw lots of kawaii doggie!!
okie..nobody knows how to set up the kite. bravo to my family! lolx..
then we notice an expert man in white with his nice nice beautiful kite...approach his help and...to think its as simple as jus poking the thread towards the loop and just tie the knot. =.=
so much for the lousy instruction on the kite's plastic bag. =.=
head on towards our kite flying and woo hoo!damn fun and its approaching evening so its such a breath-taking view. [told myself im going back there soon!! with a kite oso!]
during the kite flying session. saw a man with his golden retriever in lifejacket! so kawaii!!
the owner was throwing this big rubber ducky into the sea and wha la! the golden retriever dived into the sea and swam gracefully towards the victim; caught hold of it using its mouth, swam back towards its owner to save the victim! [okie..im abit exaggerating here..but its so ..omg... tamed and .. thumbs up!]
okie..den we head towards some mart and had our "zi cha" dinner.. lolx.. nice nice..
2008 family day is definitely better than 2007 family day at sentosa!
pasir ris din let me down! lolx.. it gave me a new feeling bout pasir ris. okie..here goes all the pics i took today..its like one album! lolx...

i said it was cold and grandmum is a living example!! lol!

eunice and justin on the rollar coaster at escape.
pictures of felicia [ my fav little cousin!]

felicia and justin.
smile at the cam!
tongues out!
bleahx!
justin and i can't seem to get angry!!
pouting!
im getting kindna bored.... [kids are more active no doubt!]
brrrr...cold cold cold!!naughty justin and i.
our kite in the sky...fly fly fly!
told u it was a nice view..

Shuang 'J' was here!
felicia at the beach.. whee whit!
the three musketeers in swimsuit [ no way m i gonna wear like them!]
Juz-Be in the house!

woo.. i guessed i've uploaded lots. lolx..
trying not to think about tmr.. coz i've gotta work!
guess that's all peeps. ciao!

2008-03-07T13:18:00.000-08:00

Today you may have difficulties connecting with others, Joyce. People may be unnecessarily harsh for seemingly no reason. Try not to get too emotionally worked up over these slights. Keep a safe distance between yourself and the drama around you. The next step you take might send you down a pit of quicksand, so make sure there is a good friend standing by to help pull you out.

i managed to sleep for 4 hours today!! finally!! my sleep is slowly coming back to me!!
4 hours after not sleeping for 2 days.. nice one huh.
wish best of cousin all the best for today's A levels results..
Ganbatte J,kok! Jas,Joy lurve Jay!!
lol..

looking at today's horo, think i just dun talk today. lol!! hope my sleep comes back to me gradually...
(:

2008-03-06T23:12:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna declare war on mango snow ice @hong kong cafe!!
and i HATE orange!!!

spent my dinner time with steph cousin today...
head towards marina square for a simple dinner and then to xin wang hong kong cafe for some nice desert...very "nice" indeed...
we were having this gigantic mango snow ice with vanilla ice cream on top of it.
steph was eating it while i was merely commenting on it that its much more taller and thicker than ice kachang.
and there it goes!
the avalanche!
the whole ice cream with some mango ice surrounding it topples on my phone!and wallet.
but my very very precious phone!!
gosh. i managed to curb down my emotions. i didn't shout or yell.
omg! and its like, the WHOLE ice cream and snow ice jus on TOP of my phone covering the whole of my phone, literally.
so much for a nice desert huh. phone lurves mango too.
but the desert is delicious la. =.=
but... the mango sort of "enters" into the top four holes of my phone!
gosh. the snow ice topples on my phone is embarrassing enough... and the top four holes, where you listen to the voice of the caller, turns ORANGE!! and guess wad...its not other colors but its ORANGE!! argh!! i hate orange!!
and i was frantically asking boar, mae and aaron to help me check wad is the original color of the four holes. and they told me is black!! argh!!!! mine turn orange of all colors!! all bcoz of the mango snow ice!!
and worst still, it affects the reception when people call in. aaron tried calling and initially i couldnt hear properly and had to like..talk to him using my ear piece, like some aunty or uncle does =x
luckily though after i reach home, i can hear properly again. so i think it sort of when bersek for awhile.... digestin the mango ice bahx.. =.= phone is greedy!!
and thanks ar aaron...keep laughing at me.. =.= im gonna get u back for this..
so many people tease me... gonna get back at them...
never see before mango snow ice topple on one's phone ar! =.=
sobz sobz.. hope its alright..phone smells abit like mango... faints..
but nonetheless, after all the commotion, i felt much much better compared to how i felt on 5th march.
so..guys.... girls.... hubby_jie.... IM MUCH MUCH BETTER!!

2008-03-06T12:54:00.000-08:00

You might find that your emotions are a bit more reserved than usual, Joyce. The energy of the day is asking you to put away the frivolity and get your nose to the grindstone. Tackle a creative project with passion. You will have a great deal of stamina today, with which you can accomplish quite a bit. Try not to get distracted by a romantic situation that may be calling out your name.

I'm feeling much better thank-you.
i know i am not alone. for i have you guys by my side. even if its not physically. it doesn't matter.
i know this matter can't be resolved just by one night. but i'll try. i promise you guys.
thanks guys.
thanks jie [hubby].
i really appreciated all these.
nonetheless..i know once this is back, the scar reminds me that the past is real.
what can i do....
crying in silence;eloquent silence.
i'll get over it. i'll try...

2008-03-05T23:19:00.000-08:00

crying myself to sleep;
like i used to.
crying in silence;
eloquent silence;
like i used to.
it pains me;
it hurts me;
to think about you;let alone talk.
my tears aren't trained in obedience centre;
they don't listen to me.
the feeling of: i just can't help it,
who would understand?
crying your heart out is good;
but i'm doing so in silence.
who would know?
nobody.
nobody at all.
i can't make a sound.
it must be pin-drop silence.
even when im crying.
eloquent silence.
i don't blame you. for that very short period of time.
i don't hate you. from that time till now. even now.
i love you more than ever. truly i did.
but the damage you have done, can't be undone.
can you feel it? can you sense it?
the pain i felt, the misery i feel.
no, you don't. don't you?
you never knew. nobody does,anyway.
im used to this;
i tell myself.
its just, the feeling of:
i cant help it.
i just can't help it.
i simply can't help it.
i simply just cant help it.
i can't...
i just can't....
i just can't help it...
who would understand?
who would know?
anything but eloquent silence.
everything but eloquent silence.

2008-03-05T04:35:00.000-08:00

ARGH!!
my swollen eyes are still there!! sigh.. go away!! shoo shoo!!
sigh..
recently haven't been sleeping well.. or rather, i have not been sleeping at all! once i lie on the bed, i will toss and turn till morning..when i wanna sleep, faints..its time to wake up!
now with the swollen eyes.. faints..

spend the day today at sm's house...played monopoly [SPONGEBOB!! ] while watchin the goosebumps movie.. very slimy...very disgusting.. lolx.. thot it was a horror show.. budden its more like a disgusting show?! lol!

okie..nice stingray and satay! lolx!!
army museum, leap years, wild wild wet, escape,dinner with cousin,godma's bdae,friend's bdae.. here i come!! erm.. shit..have to wear the sunglasses again... faints...................................

2008-03-04T21:45:00.000-08:00

i am trying so hard to curb my emotions now.
you sure are one two-faced snake right?
you..you... never mind. forget it.
God help me through this then.
i am trying hard not to start all the profanities i know of.
i am indeed trying... don't force me you... argh!
pi pa ni ge long ding dong!
next time i guessed if i wanted to start scolding you, i am better off using the above.
faints. just when i really want to start scolding and cursing, lappie starts to play the song Grace like rain.
stop playing tricks on me!
staying at a place where i can't call it home is traumatizing enough for me.
argh! pi pa ni ge long ding dong ar!
i really hate this two sided you. you make me feel so disgraceful enough furthermore i can't disown you if not i would be struck by lightning. wad.. argh!!! pi pa ni ge long ding dong ar!
screw you.

2008-03-04T19:58:00.000-08:00

zzzZZzz..
feel so tired today even though i did nothing much at home. something's definitely wrong.
Recently have been having cases of insomnia back again to me. ZZzzZZ
feel so tired and feverish.. gosh.. i didn't do much yet feel so sick. sigh?
ZZZZzzZZZ...

2008-03-03T06:27:00.000-08:00

phew... just came back from goddad's house again.. helped to paint two pink walls and already it has taken me the whole afternoon and a little bit more of my dinner time.. lol...but..heyy..i like the results... pinky... satisfactory!!

PS..MUM ATE ALL MY CHOCS!! [*wail*]
*wink* luckily i saved some for myself in my bag... lolx!! HUSH HUSH! =.=

the pink pink wall!!
yellow yellow..
the stairs..

the ceiling.. [not that clear horx?]

2008-03-02T23:04:00.000-08:00

phew!
i am so so dead beat.
practically every sunday will go aunt house and entertain my HYPER-active favourite 3-yr old cousin...
lolx.. but it really occupies my mind and prevent me from thinking something else..
faints..i so much wanted to get outta the house and do something! just....DO something.
but i guessed i can't...
not with the bruise on my head, de swollen eye and the cut on the thumb.
what am i going to be? dots.
faster get well!! argh..i wanna go to the army museum! but i doubt nt many are interested to be my companion? lol.!!! oh well... *shrug*
gonna help bro run some errand le. dats all for a tiring sundae. ciao.

2008-03-01T03:47:00.000-08:00

you're indeed my mum...lolx..
this whole time after dinner mum and i have been munching our favorites snacks infront of the tv.wad luxury..lol! we're simply choc freaks... okie la.. lol... chocs!!
furthermore have to thank mum's friend who have the green hands who always made us lots and lots of good snacks. how am i supposed to go on diet now?
lol...okie.. tym to get back to my munching time!! ciao!

2008-02-29T03:11:00.000-08:00

today is 29th feb! woo hoo.. leap year!
okie.. i sounded abit "fake"
faints.. i've really got nothing better to do nowadays huh..
true enough, i hav been stonin at home ever since dat crisis happened. sigh. not my fault but... dere's a burden on my shoulder.
at times when all i really want is to simply talk to someone, i don't know who to turn to.
at times when all i really want is to simply lean against a shoulder, providin me with the warmth i never used to have, there's none.
at times when all i really want is stare at the sky or the stars at night with someone who knows me well, there's none.
at times, at times, at times...
what do i really want this year?
how come my life is in a mess this year?
sigh..
at times,at times,at times....

2008-02-28T19:49:00.000-08:00

thanks for being there for me.
you can sense it can you?
anyway, thanks.

congrats to wj for getting into the course u really wanted.
lolx..
come to think of it..whenever i link the both of you, boar and wj together, i cant help but laugh at the both of you..lolx!!
=x
some words are better left unsaid. but...LOL!!
lao uncles worx...
=x

no matter what, you both are there for me during different times. thanks. i appreciate it.
truly, i do.

2008-02-28T19:29:00.000-08:00

i feel so stoned.
don't know why, just have this feeling, i don't like this at all. i don't like what i'm having now, i don't like what i see around me, i don't like this, i don't like that. i simply cannot find out the real reason behind every emotion i am feeling now.
am i going back to the tunnel?
i thought i saw the light towards the ending, towards the sun, out of the tunnel.

even a cut on my thumb i din noticed till today? till it so deep and the blood has all dried up?
what the hell am i doing?

crisis is not created outta the blue. guess its just the perfect word to describe what i feels now, to describe the situation i am in now.
sigh..though its not really my fault,or rather, it has nothing to do with me, yet it indirectly involves me? sigh. what else can i say? its complex? not really. its not complicated? not this either.

swollen eyes, cut on the thumb,crisis in progress, what else can happen? why don't it all come down on me at one go so i can handle it and not one at a tym? argh!!

LET ME OUTTA HERE!!
i wanna stand on the rooftop and scream my heart out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-28T11:17:00.000-08:00

Too many phone calls could plague you today, Joyce, to the point where you almost want to unplug the phone. Neighbors or relatives might seek practical advice from you, though you might not be in the space to give it. You're probably feeling more solitary than usual, and it's best to indulge that feeling to clear your head. You can give advice tomorrow!

i left my handphone on then..lol.. wonder where does all the phone calls come from.. i received none so far? even if there is, i hope if for job vacancy. hehe...

crisis crisis... sigh.. don't think it can be easily settled unless she go un-crazy?
there she goes again...ciao.

2008-02-27T03:16:00.001-08:00

so its all clear now huh?
i'm glad. lolx..
coz it's very different from what i really expect it to be.
okie..at least it's all cleared now and i felt much better.

lol! boar made me laugh so much today. LOL sia.
faints.
argh...swollen eyes simply wun go awae.
hope the method that my uncle suggested helps...
dun have much to say..dots.. now can only wait for job. though i don't really like the feeling of waiting..but i guess since i do not want to go back to hospital to work i have to do so bahx. hopefully i didn't make the wrong choice.

okie..got crisis liao..ciao.

2008-02-26T08:45:00.000-08:00

just checked my horo and this is wad i've got:
Light is being shed on cold hard facts that you may have been trying to avoid for quite some time, Joyce. There is no sense trying to pretend that you do not see the truth that is staring you square in the face. Just because you may not want to accept what you see doesn't mean that you can carry on with the belief that it simply does not exist. This is one of those times when you must face the music, whether you like it or not.

so no matter what, i hav to accept it huh? i can't just pretend huh?
i have to face the music that i don't like at all?
sigh, guessed at this moment, my trust in u fell drastically. this is reference to my doubts. if u gonna throw the facts back at me, im gonna break into pieces.
trust me.

2008-02-26T07:48:00.000-08:00

faints. just reached home not long ago. went to an agency this noon in de hope of em finding a job for us. lolx.. den after dat went to cine for a session of kbox. hahax..everyone was so full of crap and so full of shit. had so much laughter and fun though. boar joined us and ferz meeting he damn shy. can tell. lol.. so wasted.. voice so nice, sing so soft.. =.= =.=

gosh. had this swollen right eye. had to wear sunglasses when i go outdoors. simply cannot see clearly and it hurts. so think this whole week i will avoid goin outdoors le. unless necessary. like today. lolx..
its not sore eyes yet its swollen. faints. mum suggested stop looking at guys is a solution to it. i was like: =.= =.= mum, u're so crappy now. lolx
argh.. can't continue le. eyes painful. lol..and im still online? hehe... old habits...

P.S i observed something that i don't really wanna know. my observation skills aren't lousy at all. i don't know if i should confirm my doubts with you. but the truth is, i don't really wanna know the truth. sigh. coz it isn't gonna be pleasant for me to know if my doubts are confirmed. so...should i or should i not?
can i trust you all over again?

ciao.

2008-02-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

It may be hard for you to be superficial in your relationships with other people, Joyce. Whether in your professional or your personal life, it's natural for you to penetrate into the other person's world and create a strong bond between you. Today, one of these people may ask you for help, or for a commitment on your part. But are you really ready? That's the question for today. Look before you leap!

O.o i wonder what it really meant...

today is the last day of the final exams!! hip hip hurray!! three cheers man!
okie. i don't really sound that high afterall. lolx..
don't really know why.. hmm.. i became indecisive nowadays. hope these days will get over quickly...

im so gonna get luke for this... knowing i hated having those rainwater puddles splashed unto my legs and such, he purposely jump on one for he is standing beside me while all of us are walking towards the interchange after the last paper today. faints!!
argh...!!! so dirty!
lol..si ac de luke!! i'll rmb dat and find one opportunity to splash on u..hehe... bleah! si ac de!

2008-02-24T23:09:00.000-08:00

phew. just reached home. today's event simply tire me out.though it isnt some very big events but enough to wear me out. after work head towards aunt's house at tampines as usual. like it's a routine every sun. went to play and visit my beloved little cousin. she's simply so adorable!lol..

i seem to be quite Dependant on you.
i'm not totally sure. i guess i can confirm this after april. after the much delayed enlistment.
we've known each other for quite some tym. hmm..let's see.. 4 years? around there bahx..
i still remember clearly how we started to know each other. lol..i guessed both of us won't forget. it was a missed opportunity. and i dunkn wad brought us back together again. who knows.
i still cant be certain that im bowled over by all that you have said. it's just.. i have my own doubts.
but whenever i tried clearin my doubts, you provide me with ans dat..dat is simply unbelievable. or rather, its only to me. what else can i say?
i'm experiencing what i have always felt previously. it's so damn irritating of me.
i can't give anything and people seems to be giving more and i, receiving more.
and i felt even worst when it added another factor: wait.
if im the one waiting, i would definitely be blowing my top.
but...
now its the wheels goes round huh. i've decided that i should wait.
and see how it goes.... bahx..

2008-02-23T14:29:00.000-08:00

Flexibility is key for you at this point in time, Joyce. Go with the flow and learn from those who have a more laid-back and gentle attitude. Taking a more relaxed approach does not necessarily mean you are lazy. Be free flowing and less controlling. Things will start coming your way much more easily than if you try to force them through with a great deal of effort on your part.

okie..im so not gonna do anything today..since early morning i have already experienced such circumstances. yup... guess the main point after all is to go with the flow (:

have a few ideas in mind about how im gonna spend my holidays. lolx.. first and foremost, of course! enjoy a great deal first!! work can abit slightly later i don't mind. as long as i work mum doesn't mind any.

Go with the flow,joy joy.
i guess, this sentence, should provide to the others too!!
Go with the flow everyone!!

2008-02-23T06:59:00.000-08:00

stayed at home today as im not feeling that well....didn't managed to study too..coz grandmum pop over and we had two rounds of mahjong!! hehex..
after that we head towards hougang mall for a feast. lolx..not exactly a feast but better than usual dinner la. had our dinner at soup restaurant. over 100 bucks but its worth it coz its very nice and the atmosphere is not bad.. just a suggestion: enlarge ur table! lolx..

the very ancient deco..

soup restaurant..herbal jelly..[not to my liking coz its bitter!]

this certainly shows dat the food is good!that's for today. ciao!

2008-02-22T23:04:00.000-08:00

I finally managed to watch my PS I LOVE YOU!
lol! gosh. finally managed ...managed to watch the movie of one of my favorite authors. damn lovely!
great..it was as well as i expected it to be.
before the movie starts, jie was like telling me:" you better don't cry". i was like: " orh."
from the beginning of the movie, i was telling myself:" i know what holly's gonna do, what gerry is up to, blah blah blah.i've read the book and i know de details....quite well"
so much so, i cried buckets.
=.=
lol! can't blame me! im a vivid novel reader. a sentimental novel reader. that's me.

movie up next: kungfu dunk and leap years.
lol! movie marathon!
meanwhile need to help jie familiarize herself with her new school environment ferz. for her, its definitely worthwhile.

everyone needs a guardian angel..this i agree lots!!
hmm..so where's mine? >.<

2008-02-21T03:17:00.001-08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO SINGAPORE!
FOR BEING AWARDED TO HOLD THE YOUTH OLYMPICS GAMES IN 2010 AUG.

steady la. lolx.. can hear cheers from my neighborhood. guess this really is an honorable event. for each and everyone of us, for every singaporeans.
today is the last day of chinese new year. sadded. lolx..it seems to be ending so quickly. lol?
gonna enjoy the last reunion! lolx..

flu hasn't left me. faints. waste another box of tissue. lolx..hack care le.
lol.. whole day haven't had anything. dinner was just nice. later still have the yu sheng to tackle. lolx..HUAT AH!!

2008-02-20T07:03:00.001-08:00

ah choo! i caught the cold again. faints.
just got home from jie's house. had so much laughter as usual. lolx..
though we can't be studying together, our bond is unbreakable and definitely NOT fragile!
lol?
okie la.. i use another whole box of tissue again. till i lack of energy to bloggie le.
shall end here for today. ciao

2008-02-19T13:40:00.000-08:00

CONDOLENCES TO LYDIA SUM'S FAMILY.
she passed away peacefully this morning at the age of 61.
Her laughter is an icon. She,herself is an icon.
How can we ever forget her? No,we won't. Never will.
Her dramas; her laughter; her jokes; her happy-go-lucky character;
and so much more.
God took her away.
But is to a better place up,up,above.
The days when she has been so tortured by illness were gone.
The days of suffering are gone.
Rest In Peace,Lydia a.k.a fei fei. you're forever remembered.

im so gonna use the whole box of tissue. or rather, and counting. lol?
already yesterday night i have been feeling weird and went offline unusually early at midnight. hehex. faints. was outside and felt giddy all of a sudden.
went home and felt the same. i hack care and this is the end result.
now flu adds on to the problem. nice one la. how am i gonna study for tmr's exam?
okie..though i dun study much for exams, budden oso must read up mahx..
gosh. guess im so gonna TRY to read some. hopefully i can make it through.

good thing for luke. if not i pass my virus to you. lolx!! ciao.

2008-02-18T03:27:00.001-08:00

one down, two more to go.
hearing this cliche sentence meant exam papers. lolx..

say easy is not easy. say difficult, i dkn wad to sae.
lolx.. as usual, i jus do wadever i can. what else. lol?

gosh. i dkn why. i felt a sense of giddiness and headache every now and then.
think either i need my slp, or im so gonna get back to gym soon. lolx? dkkn de link anywae.

okie.. dats for now. adios.

2008-02-17T06:59:00.001-08:00

ahaha... just started work again today... budden close shop early today done by me oso.
went to aunt house like another cny gathering again.. played mahjong had dinner and such.

tired tired. tmr maths. that makes me mad. final exams
last sem i rmb my final exams modules, i studied on the day itself. coz its during de afternoon. for tmr, i studied today while working and it doubles the energy spent and after 2 hours im totally drained. have to tahan till 6pm. gosh. lolx..

jus reach home.. gonna relax awhile and ..tmr comes..tmr goes..lolx..hopefully time flies for final exams. ciao

2008-02-16T05:37:00.000-08:00

went house visiting today. took a lot of my fav pictures. lolx.. gonna post some. not all. if not it would be like a photo album. lolx..
here goes::

isis(maltese) under the table
sheba(golden retriever)
isn't she beautiful?
isis play ball time:

isis on the chair

both sheba and isis are dog-weary

isis on the sofa!
isis and mum

mum,sis and isis

my ferz kiss is given to isis!
isis and i:

godma,isis and i:
isis,sis and i:
isis close up
guess who's this:
sheba's close up:
sheba and isis in a pile:
sheba and i:
what is sheba peeping at?
shepherd's pie(this is cheezy and yummy!)
a different dog~ godma's doggie,an an:

alright i guess this is it. lolx..it looks like i upload alot huh.. budden there's more la..lolx..

2008-02-15T02:53:00.000-08:00

gosh. i got those disgusting photos. faints. faints.
luckily i dunkn u dat well or rather i keep findin excuses not to meet u. u are jus another pervertic asshole huh?!
gosh. God, stop him from sending those photos to me. i thank You. sigh.

i have to brainwash my head now to get rid of those images. im so damn disgusted by it.
and pls, i have NO whatsoever interest in such pictures!
gosh.

need to go brainwash liao.

2008-02-14T06:56:00.001-08:00

sushi pictures taken today. lolx..jie and i are big eaters huh?
i miss my sushi so much! japanese food rocks!!!!! lolx.. ramen and sushi!!

2008-02-14T06:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

another day have passed. just another day. guess i can say i spend my time today being a love consultant. lolx.. hopefully its all worthwhile. what matters to me most is you must have faith. believe. don't hesitate. nobody is unworthy of any other. Ganbatte!! trust ur wife here. lolx.. ganbatte hubby koh!!

P.S yes im married. im married to my beloved jie. lolx.. we're crazy? nahx.. we can live without guys but we can't live without each other. lolx.. envious?

2008-02-13T02:46:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is the DAY.
i leave it to FATE.
for nth i DO,
seems to be right for ME.
guess i just treat it as any other normal DAY.
for fate DECIDES.

perhaps perhaps perhaps.
maybe all in all, i just stay at home and sleep!! lolx!

Happy birthday everyone!

2008-02-12T01:28:00.000-08:00

This may be one of those days where you feel like your brain is still in bed sleeping, Joyce. But don't worry. Your "go with the flow" nature should be able to handle a slower pace. If others around you seem to be getting rather frazzled, take a moment to remind them that it's just one day and that tomorrow will probably feel much easier. It's best today to focus on rest and relaxation.

i guess i can't deny that that's what i am feeling now. lol.. ever since cny started, i haven't have a nice good sleep. not yesterday; not today; wouldn't be tomorrow either bahx..
hopefully this would be over soon though. i needed the drive. i needed the strength. to go through it all. alone.

2008-02-11T04:26:00.000-08:00

As the day approaches; my mind starts to be in a whirl.
on top of that, my body isn't really co-operating with me.

i promise i will get back to you. but as the day goes by and the DAY approaches, i really don't know what should i do; what decision i should make.

you said you don't trust her previously;now it looks like the pot is calling the kettle black.
somehow or rather, i am beginning to have my doubts. whether its on you or is it on the circumstances, it really doesn't matter. no matter what, i don't like this feeling i am having now.
i don't know why but it doesn't seem to be going at a "right-feeling" kind of direction.

tell me what am i suppose to do?

countdown: three days.

2008-02-10T06:42:00.001-08:00

Following are photos i took during cny.. mostly on my beloved cousin-felicia..
[i babysit her ever since she is born!]

felicia and the bear

felicia and mr Bean's bear

felicia and the banana!

felicia and eunice

my piggy!!

japanese style mahjong!

2008-02-10T06:29:00.000-08:00

Fourth day of chinese new year. lolx..
initially i wasn't really looking forward to chinese new year..coz i presume im gonna be so bored during this period of time. but i was proven wrong from my relatives. lolx.. im so busy these four days! lolx.. gosh.. every single day went out for visiting and of coz, not forgetting gambling... hehex..
this holiday really gonna be so....... i dunkn.... lolx.. can't seem to find the correct word; might contradict myself.. anywae...gonna get busy agn..dots.. adios!

2008-02-06T09:26:00.001-08:00

gosh. i din expect this. i really didn't expect this from you at all.
seriously i was caught off guard by your question. ironically enough, i would be asked such related questions on very unique dates. firstly its on April's Fool's day. Now on chinese new year day. though its not exactly the same question but it can be linked. gosh. what am i supposed to do?
seriously i didn't expect this from you. really i didn't. gosh. ohmigod.

can someone tell me what to do? i guess the last decision still lies with me.
but....jie! i need you! i need your advice!!

for now... i just wanna enjoy my mouse year. huat ah!! hehex..

2008-02-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY MOUSE YEAR DEARIES!!

2008-02-05T05:19:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year is just around the corner! and i really mean around the corner. hehex..
wasn't really looking forward to cny this year initially as there's nothing much to anticipate for.
but i guess i just let nature takes its course. if friends aren't occupied,can jio them to slack and get together this chinese new year. not a bad idea huh?

dead tired by occupying all of my tym ever since the beginning of my hols by being a companion to friends,cousins for their cny shopping. im a great help huh? lolx.. the whole day i can be their companion and buy lotsa and lotsa stuffs! sorry im unable to help u luke. hehex.. contradict with family workload and business. im so so tired. faints. furthermore tmr everyone big or small; young or old is coming to "my hse" for the reunion dinner. another round of whole day gettin busy. ever since when is my holidays truly MY holidays? lolx.. that will be when im still learnin how to walk and talk bahx..

meanwhile; enjoy all the holidays and spend time with your loved ones everyone! adios!

2008-02-03T07:52:00.000-08:00

just came back.. ohmigod. damn tired..
lolx.. after morning work, went to celebrate fav little cousin's bdae and den head towards tampines interchange in search for elder cousin's cny clothings.
lolx..the experience of shopping with him is damn funny. i hope my fashion advice is proven to be brilliant if not good. lolx.. im better at guy's clothings i dkn why. or rather,other's. depends.
anyway lolx.. cousin! i will forever rmb the black shirt with the specs and cross necklace! lolx..!!
three cheers for that huh!
and the salesman who mentioned waist size 28-30 isn't guy's.....lolx!!
bravo to him too!

okie la.. tmr gonna be another long day with jie. gonna prove some uncle wrong by searchin for the aunt's stuffs. gonna hunt for info now..adios..

2008-02-02T05:59:00.000-08:00

yawns!
hasn't been sleeping early past few days. and when i meant late, its really late. usually i will slp before 2am. now is like nearing 5am. dots.and i will force myself to get outta bed early in the mornin for my errands and such. very nice one. lolx.. thot im supposed to slack which also meant sleeping lots and lots. why it doesnt seem this way? lolx..

slam dunk! im so gonna watch it! lolx.. with my idol and de kungfu...ohmigod.. wad else can we asked for? of coz after cny comes PS I Love You. that is a must must must!!!!!!!

very satisfied with cny shopping. lolx.. though this year's stuffs cheaper den last year's. but bought more. lolx.. okie.. hair changing color..wonder hw it gonna look.. adios!

2008-02-01T05:08:00.000-08:00

my wound becomes worst! ohmigod... dots.. to think i thought i should let it heal by itself...
it got infection instead.. wail!! now it really hurts for me to wear anything;anything at all! gosh; cny is coming too..wad am i gonna do? like..like... how am i gonna wear my heels?! lolx.. at least i've gotta wear something right?! faints.

i need something..something to....get rid of my giddy spells. okie..its weird.. ever since i had dat accident with the bicycle; im been feeling so damn tired. i wonder if the bump on my head is hard or not; but i doubt its dat serious. no bumps on my head just vision blur and giddy spells. guess i need mre slp slp slp will do?! lolx..

okie..im like slacking big time already..lolx.. gaming; online streaming;slping;eating.
i wanna get outta de house outta the four white walls [not exactly totally white]] but with the wound infection, i would be like torturing myself...wail...

okie.. i guessed im back to gaming now.. oOps.. gosh. im abit too slacked?! nvm..will get the drive back after cny,i deserve dis after..after... nvm. its all over. [i guessed]

gonna get outta dis darkness no matter wad. i saw the light outta de tunnel; only it seems so close,and yet so far...

2008-01-31T04:23:00.000-08:00

Its all finally over! common test, report, presentation, assignments, blah blah blah, ITS ALL FINALLY OVER!! phew. a break finally! guess i just wanna play play play till aft cny den prepare for the final exams again. aren't gonna think about it ferz. hahax.. gonna play play play ferz!

hmm.. shld i or shld i not? i aren't having that much confidence in myself. i dkn. lolx..
dilemma. emotional month during feb. just a reference frm horoscope. i wonder wads gonna happen. lolx..

whee hee! just gonna continue watchin anime, watchin shows, play games and SLACK SLACK SLACK! okie..im so happy. lolx.. jump for JOY!! lol..i lurve my name..lolx
okie..gonna "Enjoy" my dinner le. adios!

2008-01-30T07:58:00.000-08:00

this time im really seeing red. but never mind.
i hope its all over. [rather than its not over]
alot advised me not to repeat the same mistake. im carrying too much burden on myself.
but,sigh. under such circumstances, though i complain, but what can i do? i cant overcome me feeling bad about it. butbut.. injustice! sigh.
i really hope its all over.
im gonna crashed or break down if this continues next sem. sigh.

tmr presentation, can i be barefooted? lolx.. i've gt medical reasons!

2008-01-29T07:43:00.000-08:00

i'm seeing red here.. red as in the flesh of my body instead of getting angry at something or someone.
i've got 6 blisters on both my feet! ohmigod! it hurts like shit la!
1 little, 2 little, 3 little blisters;
4 little, 5 little, 6 little blisters;
gosh. i dowan it to hit 10! faints.
all because i wore the wrong shoe size. great going. =.=

after school today went to meet up with jie and company her till 10pm shopping around in bugis, suntec,marina square and tampines. got all that she need. of coz,with my help. lolx.. and..poor me, i have to bear the pain of my feet and walk 17 000 plus steps today.

after walking jie back to her house, i walked again back to the bus interchange and waited for aaron. he got the water bag! praise the Lord. i so desperately needed it and im like the only one being so anxious for it. =.= some words are better left unsaid.
and then another bravo discovery. i did not have the time to study for material tech. another great going joy. *pat*pat* =.=
i hope thurs will end soon and then whoo hoo! i can take a break from this hectic pressure im burdening myself.

where are you ? my lochinvar? where are you to share the burden with me and lend me your shoulders when i just wanna lean against it even if its just for a min? lolx.. im thinking too much.
i see what else there needs to be done. for now, adios.

2008-01-28T06:04:00.000-08:00

romantic princess is quite a catch! lolx..
but you need to have those mentality of fairy-tale-like-feelings, romance kind of imagination and such.. lolx..very lovely-dovey. lolx..
jap down, cnc down, left report, prototype,material test to go.
ganbatte everyone! ganbatte joy joy!

2008-01-27T02:45:00.000-08:00

just finished my plain rice for dinner.
yup. serious. its plain rice plus chicken soup.
sunday's dinner is forever so plain so simple. soup + dinner.
but perhaps im very fussy and picky bout "quality" of food, today's food not up to my standard.
end up i eat plain rice with soup. lolx.. faints. guess im off to eating baby biscuits later. okie.. i have a fetish for it. lolx.. its not really those few months baby biscuits rather its those kids biscuits budden i prefer calling it baby biscuits. lolx..
okie.. either im off playin games or eating de baby biscuits mum bought.
either way, im letting those projects,those common tests,those tests pile up. until then, adios!

2008-01-25T05:33:00.000-08:00

yeah! whoo hoo! hand is gonna be alright i guessed... hehex..
hopefully bahx.. though the bruise/swell is still there... hmm...

yeah! managed to trick roger today.. lolx..roger had a habit of always asking if anyone of us is leaving anything behind. we were leavin south canteen on the way to mac to continue watchin romantic princess. mae initially wanted to trick roger by saying her stuff is being left behind but to no avail. i waited for a very short while and started shouting: "roger! i left my hp behind! quick! help me take!" roger believed me and quicken his steps back to the south canteen. i,too, quickened my steps wanting to avoid him in case he chase after me. lolx...after i started laughing,they realised i was tricking him. to think i managed to trick sm oso..lolx..mae was stoning wonderin if im telling de truth. lolx. .so funny. my acting skills not bad huhx..lolx..

okie..today's autocad test i didnt do the side view which is not given to my question. lolx.. i oso dkn why. i just couldn't sit down there and concentrate on doing autocad. lolx..guessed...well then..i just have to let fate decide bahx.. lolx..

romantic princess is so nice! its de storyplot and the actors and actress are chosen so perfectly.. lolx
its so like cinderella and such, and i so lurv cinderella.... lolx!!
i don't mind being the main lead actress.. lolx...
okie..gonna hv my late dinner again.. adios!

2008-01-24T04:48:00.000-08:00

'O' lvls just released today. was worried from 2pm till around 5 plus. lolx..
not my turn to get the results la.. mine over so long le..
jie's,friend's, close friend's, junior's...etc etc..
lolx..worried for them..some was well,some alright, some din do as they expected..
well.. i dunkn hw to really advice them but can only advice individually.
hope it helps though. anything i'll be here for you guys!
jie darling, no need thank me. lolx.. wait erhem. erhem. lolx..
anything for you jie.
okie..gonna slack abit for now.. hand still not well, wonder hw im gonna do my autocad tmr. and so many stuffs need to be done by next week..here i am, piled up with stuffs while.... lolx..
adios!

2008-01-23T03:46:00.000-08:00

Those that are taking their o levels results tmr, you are all in my prayers!
this esp goes out to jie,jasmine,aaron and those who know me but i forgotten to list u down. as long as you're takin ur results tmr, u will be in my prayers!
May God bless all of you.

2008-01-23T00:43:00.000-08:00

wasn't feeling up to anything ever since my hand is bandaged.
i can't do much with just one hand and it pisses me off when i think of how irritating and how troublesome i am with just one hand. it makes me get all boiled up and might flare up for that tiny mini matter. sigh.

i really hope that my right hand will get well asap. and i really meant asap.
as for now, most of the time i can only stone and stone and more stoning. nice one.
okie.. typed enough with just one hand. for now~ adios.

2008-01-21T04:32:00.000-08:00

can't typed so much today. lolx..
doing miling, workshop;as usual every mon.
done halfwae, felt a sharp pain on de bone of my palm of my right hand.
stopped; and realised dat there's a swell on the bone and its blue black!
and mae told me its fractured.. i dkn leh..sigh..

used to hammer my hand durin workshop or halfwae thru something will find a swell out of nowhere and it hurts like shit. =.= still rmb 8 tyms i sprained my left ankle. lolx..
faints. so many stuffs to do and i have to sprain it now. my writing hand summre! gosh.

and very gud friend indeed horx.. zach "scared" me by telling me about his incident when he went racing with his friends and had an accident and landed on his wrist and den it gets worst after a few days and such. all becoz he wants me to see a doc. =.=
thank you for that thought though!
aaron too.. lolx..budden ask me go hospital..faints..
boar ask me go take xray... =.=
wj ask me see doc too.. =.=
okay...its nt dat serious la.. i guessed it shld be alryte? i dkn leh..western docs will bandage ur hand den ask u go home. chi physician twist and turn ur hand and den ask u rest. =.=

okie.. very tiring to type with just my left hand. well done man. projects,reports,assignments,tests,notes,exams. faints..my writing hand!! wail...

cried while watchin kinship 2. yusheng and yingjun. omg.. sigh...why must liddat...

2008-01-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

i hope i am not much of a bother to you guys. esp adam and zach. lolx..
others are included as well though. keep bothering you guys to help me find songs.
lolx.. hope u guys wun find me a nuisance..hehex..

okie..im so tired la..been so packed with stuffs.. sigh...
hopefully i have the strength to continue..

i dkn wad m i to you. but nevertheless,i knw no matter wad, i will help. just like years ago, i managed to persuade u to walk another path of your life journey. thankfully u succeeded and here you are now,perfectly well though dumb at tyms. lolx.. ganbatte!

im SO gonna watch P.S i love you on movie theatre! gosh. i reda that book before by cecilia adhern. it rocks man! another author's collection dat i have finished reading. this book is so...wow. touching, heart wrenching, breathe taking and so much more! im gonna watch it since i have read de book before and i lurv it to hell. lolx..nice choice of timing though! its showing on valentine's day this year! omg..lolx.. it blend in so well!!
hmm.. P.S i wonder who im watchin this with....

2008-01-19T07:37:00.000-08:00

sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
i see no anticipation.
i feel its not worth it.
and im gettin pissed over it.
why must u spoil my day now?
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.

2008-01-19T05:08:00.000-08:00

Tired... lolx..
early morning wake up to make a journey down to clementi.. for NP's open house..
actually just company wj to take a look at the premises and the film and media studies course. lolx..look at the premises.. he might wanna drive 2 hours to sch everyday.. lolx.. faints..
one tour guide approach us and asked us to take de goodie bag and donut.. lolx..we refused and the tour guide was kindna shock..lolx.. dkn why.. roam around np and didn't get lost [coz i still rmb how to walk! ] for at most 30-40mins nia.. lolx..
conclusion about open house: nothing much.

den we head back to clementi mrt and went to anchorpoint becoz i wanna take a look at the mickey mouse restaurant. like wj mentioned, media tend to do something to the ending product of the item and make u feel so much anticipation for it,but when u go to the actual place, u would be feel with disappointment. yea. i felt that when i saw de restaurant. on tv, it was so nice and comfy. when i went there, its nothing much and it look so cramped up. on tv, the chairs look so cute and comfortable. in reality, the chairs are nth much. lolx.. end up we went to eat subway which is his very ferz tym to eat! lolx!

i wonder what is coming unto the guys nowadays. i wonder why they never eat subway before! bro was one, wj another one. lolx..both have different ways in eating subway! lolx..damn funny... =x
after that we head towards bugis. just to walk around lor...since its just mid afternoon.. lolx..
den after that we decided to head to tampines[YET AGAIN] for dinner. okie..or rather, his dinner.since i dun feel like eating anything and jus ate three pieces of his twisted fries and one mouthful of his beef burger. lolx..

went to the national lib. previous occasions we jus passed by and din really went in...
today the two mountain tortoises jus went straight up to the escalator up till 7th floor when we realised like dere's nth to borrow? weird.. lolx..den we took de stupid lift down. as to why its stupid coz the walls are mirrors and transparent!! lift!! okie..at least wj is behind and reassure me....si act cute de..make me take de lift..den its rainin and we decided to continue seekin shelter there... den we found out that the books is at basement one!! lolx...si act cute de...
and for the very ferz tym i went to the chinese section and listen to wj's and his philosophy...lolx.. ferz tym i would go to the chinese section...but still i learn something from there and so its not that bad..

after HIS dinner, we went to mini toons coz i spot lotsa mickey mouse! okie.not only there..almost anywhere i will spot the mickey mouse and drag him into the shop.. lolx..
and then that si act cute de lao uncle[oOps] point to a seal and tell me:" why that dog no ears de?
i stare at him in bewilderment... i replied:"si act cute de! its a SEAL la!!"
LOL!! whenever i think about it i go laughin la!

okie.. very tired liao.. faints... kindna like the "ferz" time we went to so many places....
though im damn tired and the stupid bus keep speedin and caused the ride home to be so bumpy that i cant slp much in the bus, its still an enjoyable day apart from sch life.. faints..
HOLIDAYS!! im awaiting for YOU!!

2008-01-18T06:55:00.000-08:00

Saw crowds moving in and out of the auditorium. sigh..a reminder that i couldn't get in there to watch the might-be "breathe-taking" performance.
Nevertheless, yet again i believed though i have yet again missed so many musicals, so many concerts due to different circumstances, there still will be lots more chances out there waiting for me. lolx.. hope i aren't deceiving myself huh.

gonna company wj to np for the open house. lolx.. gonna suan him so much man.. so 'old' liao summre 'fight' places with the o lvls students... hehex.. =x
hmm... gm offered help at ferz but he cannot make it in the end to bring us around at np. lolx.. thnx for the thought though! cheers!
just realised that he might be there,or most probably be there for the open house. well, nothing much..but..hope there wun be any awkward moments if we so coincidentally bumped into each other bahx.. not that i dowan to see him but for sure there will be awkward moments that i believed both of us do not want to experience. it all happened so long ago... but sigh...
i leave it all to Him.

ahh..lolx..nyp posted 20 pages in the newspaper today to promote our courses..omg..faints faints..i see other polys posting only 2 or 3 pages in the newspapers nia..ours is 20 pages!! my mum was like..wah...ur sch so kiasu this year arh?famous liao wor..after the push up record... =.=
lol... dots.dots.. is there really such a need? *shrug* nyp so small liao summre so many people cum in, not only local students nia lo...gonna make the whole campus burst mehx.. =.=

im so tired!! sigh.. wad m i to you?

2008-01-17T05:09:00.000-08:00

As usual, late dinner again..faints..
argh! i want that damn kawaii shit pushie at amk hub's arcade!! but nobody knows how to play that damn machine! gosh...gosh..
the so damn cute shitty pushie!!
wail wail...so cute lo!! sigh...

okie..my lappie is still not well...argh.. hopefully my bro is able to give it the right medicine..
dots..furthermore, they want the autocad trial test to be tmr. very well done huh. i cant even imagine how am i gonna pass the damn test when i cant imagine the views la! sigh

another disappointing matter...no more free tickets for the chinese orchestra at NYP tmr?! wth...
initially got 2 free tickets from luke's friend. budden suddenly left one. so we intend to pay for the other ticket half half each. but now..sigh... no more tic le.. so left one ticket nia..so i back out and either luke go alone or dun go too. but not going would be a waste of that tic. but going alone. faints! so no kick. dots... sigh..so much of an anticipation towards it. wanna listen to it but..sigh...no other alternatives...sigh..chinese orchestra...sigh....sayonara!

2008-01-16T06:13:00.000-08:00

Is a current or potential romantic partner away, Joyce? If so, you might be cheered up considerably by a very welcome phone call that comes in the middle of the afternoon. Your friend could have good news and interesting experiences to share. However, the important thing is that you hear this person's voice. It should motivate you to push on ahead and make a success of your own enterprises. Go to it, and enjoy your day.

lolx..not much of an anticipation when i saw this this morning. nothing much happens. i hear no voice i hear no motivation. lolx..faints...so fake..

Yawns...late dinner again.. though its just soup.. dots dots dots.
my autocad is still not okie in my lappie and there's a trial test this coming fri? wth?!
haix.. guess i jus wanna pass this autocad.. i prefer computer programming! im better at words? lolx.. ask me draw with pencil can? lolx...hope the autocad equiz would be able to pull me up bahx.. jap role play...dots.. quite fun..but the practice doesn't turn out as i expect it will be. or rather, maybe i have a high standard for it. oh well. i guessed.. wad else can i do? *shrug*

2008-01-15T03:04:00.000-08:00

Yawns. I m so tired.. gosh. there's so much to do yet again so little time.
my lappie!! omg.. still not ready...how about my autocad test man.. gosh..hope things will turn out well bahx..

argh!! argh!! sm tricked me!! we were at bugis with mae and roger.
sm and i took bus home[intend to] while mae and roger took train back home.
but but but sm din tell me clearly that we have to walk to little india to take the bus!
i make a big damn fuss about going there. faints.
i dowan go there!! when i realised that im walkin nearer and nearer to little india i started to get suspicious. omg! its really there to take the bus! omg. omg. sm tricked me!! omg
omg omg omg...make my heart beat faster; breathing difficulty..faints. i aren't not going near there la!! argh argh argh!!! sorry la..budden i cant help it.... lolx..

gonna get busy again..adios..

2008-01-14T06:32:00.000-08:00

you've changed. or i haven't?
i believed in life, people changes as fast as seasons.
i felt a sudden sharp disappointment in me when i found out.
i wasn't sure why am i feeling this way. it aren't that bad, it aren't that good either.
either way, for whatsoever reasons,i felt weird. somehow or rather,
it wasn't you. the "old" you i knew so much,too well.
but i guessed you have the right to change. The path that you are walking, i wasn't sure if it's steady enough; i can be here for you whenever,wherever. but the path, it holds your very own footprints and not mine. just yours alone. i do really hope its the one you really chose to walk down. Maybe i have slided back and doesn't really approve of what you are doing. but i gonna remind myself that i did the same thing as what you are doing now. though its nothing much, or rather, if i have yet to discover this new side of yours,i believe you don't have much of that kind of experience. i know you too well,so well that i do not wish for anything to happen to you. whatever decision,whenever life's up or life's sucks,we were there for each other and will always be,i know. even though we kind of lead our own life now. we don't have to see each other but we know we are on each other's mind every now and then.
the company that you are hanging out with, i don't really approve of them. at all. with the exception of maybe one. but it's only half an approval. outsiders may sees it that im intruding in your own personal life, but we know how it goes. i really really see no future in hanging out with them. friends yes.not more. definitely not more. its more than common sense. if you get what i mean. i do hope things will be better for you. hoping this isn't the future you really want. if not, all i can conclude is that: you have changed. but i know for now, you have not yet to reach the stage where i m seriously being hurt by you. you know how we feel when either one is in a bad shape. though we are of no blood relations, there seems to be telepathy between us and nothing can tear us apart. quarrels? gosh. we don't even have that. blabbering? yes,for a joke. fights? never.
so for now,i pray that sis, you are still the sis that i knew and love so much.
in Jesus's name i pray;
Amen.

2008-01-14T05:26:00.001-08:00

Sidney Sheldon! Sandra Brown!
you guys rocks! lolx..finished sandra's collection and another author's collection.
gosh gosh...gonna finished sidney's collection too. wad am i suppose to do? im running outta author's books to read!

argh.. i dkn wad to do.. lolx..hmmm...i wonder why you asked those questions. its outta the blue..very outta the blue..lolx.. hmm..leave it to fate bahx.

omg.. kaida is so cute and innocent when now he's gone mad. or so to say. .
gosh. zhou chu ming rocks. with his kiddish face and character,hes' so cute! lolx..
multi tasking again...

adios. where is my lochinvar.... =x=x

2008-01-13T04:57:00.001-08:00

whoo hoo...
aunt just came back from taiwan..she bought for me a mickey mouse necklace. omg! so kawaii!! was surprised she knows i love mickey mouse. lolx..
then a red magnetic necklace.. lolx..
i rmb my bro went to thailand, he bought me a cool necklace with a heart,two keys.
seems like anyone who went overseas,they will buy necklace for me.. lolx.. i wonder why...
eeew...AVP is showing now.. abit gross..furthermore im having my dinner while multi tasking...
aiyo..faints.faints..later gonna write jap compo twice liao..and omg..songs songs.. wad m i without music in my life..lolx..
adios..gonna get busy busy busy..

2008-01-12T00:40:00.000-08:00

ITS COMING BACK ONCE AGAIN...

can someone just come and carry me off this piece of shitty land and take me away, far far away from this place?
it may all seems to be a fantasy, so fairy-tale like and it aren't gonna happen to me. but that's how and what i am feeling right now. i feel like a piece of shit. worst than that or rather. i thought it was all over. but as a matter of fact, it's not over. just like Chris Daughtry's song: Its not over.
i want it to be over. seriously i do. now that it has come back, i am caught off guard. i thought.. i seriously thought... i have carry on.. i did. . i tried.

Why? Why? Why?
why must "you" come back? wasn't things going well after "you" left?
why must this thing happen again? and indirectly, even if i am not involved,my emotions are being dragged into it. it's like a bottomless pit once again and again.
somebody please.. hold my hand and promise you won't let go and take me away from here in your shiny armor and white/black horse..

Both of you are so so precious to me. Everyone else is,too. But both of you plays the most important role in my life. what am i without the both of you. its the Both of you.
but WHY? WHY?
when i am here, looking at both of you right in the eyes;
you lift me up, only to let me go and fall deep down..down..down...
one; you brought me to this world.
the other; you raised me from the moment i started wailing as a newborn till who i am now.
Both of you; my left and right hands.
thus, it hurts me now. and its gonna continue hurting.
it's not like i didn't care; it's not like i can't be bothered.
i am simply too hurt to say anything.
i am simply numbed to this matter again.
i'm not involved but it hurts me damn lot when these happens.

i love the whole lot of you; no matter what.
the ring around my finger says so. of all fingers; the ring is on my second finger ; not the middle, not the fourth.
i love the whole lot of you; i love till it hurts and i begin to hate...

But i'm not gonna bear grudges. i'm not gonna hate.
im gonna face this openly. yet again.
i pray for strength; i pray for peace.
i pray for you; i pray for you too.

my dearies;my prince;
take me away...

2008-01-10T04:53:00.000-08:00

whoo hoo!
going to gym pay off...
okie la.. one week once....2kg off in two weeks.. 1 hour every thurs... lol
dots. im..dog weary le. very. very. very.
shoulder shoulder shoulder.
i wan a shoulder to lean on. yawns..
ciao.

2008-01-08T07:10:00.000-08:00

i've finished my report in 2hours and 40mins just today!
tired tired tired...so dog-weary...
lolx.. zach aka mark has been a great help...thnx for ur sources and ur brains! =p
not forgettin de person who "intro" mark to me just for dis report....thnx aaron!
okie..im officially shagged...up till now my autocad still cannot use... its makin my lappie faulty.. stupid autocad..no wonder i hated it so much..sianz.. its so gonna pull my GPA down. but dots. hack care. lolx.
merely recovered from gastric flu and few days ago the flu,now im totally drained.. arghh... lolx..
alamak..why np next week den open house..act cute de.. lolx..
poly open house...chey..not interested.. lol..hopefully friends will go see see look look but everything depends greatly on results..dots..back to the "old" times..
gonna watch Shounen Onmyouji now before my bedtym story tym.... lolx...while waiting for 10th jan to come..naruto!!! u're greatly missed!!
ciao!
P.S i jus realised the real meaning of shagged...lol..omg..i din realise la! cheers to cherlyn for tellin me...

2008-01-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

just came back from work. yawns.. tired..
and updates for individual report>> number of words: 0!
lolx..
whoo hoo. hopefully the info so kindly provided by mark will be of help.
sianz... im left with mon night and tues night to do...ask me do now is a big no-no. im shagged and de info will flood me and cause nightmares. lolx!
gonna watch anime ferz den visit lala land. adios!

2008-01-04T06:46:00.000-08:00

cockroaches conquered the bus today!!!
small baby cockroaches in bus 853!!
gosh. its so damn gross!!

was on the way home from yishun together with luke and sm.
budden suddenly we saw so many cockroaches near the back of the bus. gosh. gross!
our seats appear to have none of their traces.
budden halfway thru de journey, suddenly it appear near the window and sm is sitting near the window! omg! i came out from my seat and went to sit beside luke while sm sit away from the window. gross.
luke is sleepin soundly in the bus while sm and i are nearly half freaked out from all the commontion going inside the bus la. apparently some of the back passengers have noticed about the cockroaches too. its like...omg..why is the bus infested with it? its so damn disgusting la! it shouldn't have such tiny freaky creatures in the bus!! omg omg omg.

condolences to family of MC KING who died at the age of 40 today.
he is a true comedian where everywhere he is,laughter follows.
we will miss his joyful-ness,his laughter,his jokes, his cuteness and so much more.
May God bless his soul. Amen.

2008-01-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

a brand new year. a brand new test.
each and everyone is having one. right at the very moment.
to all those experiencing what God may be setting for us now-
have faith.
im not sure if i am deceiving myself by saying that. but im trying not to. i know its a test to my endurance level;my patience. vulgarities coming out from me aren't doing anything better to heal the pain. yet i failed myself by saying it. i can't helped it. yes. i can help it in the first place but i didn't. guess we've just gonna give each other a pat on the back and sae: look, God is giving us these as He does. He may be giving us more as year 2008 has just begun. we have to grit our teeth and get moving on. the road dat we are stepping on may be covered by hot charcoals or thousands and thousands of needles or the weather is scorching hot or icy cold. we just gotta move on. we gotta have faith. have hope. have trust. we trust in Him. im not sure if my words right now ,right here helps anyone including myself for de ordeal. but we jus gotta try. we aren't gonna give up and be defeated by de other one.
i believe in Him.Do You?

2008-01-03T03:30:00.000-08:00

TO ALL THOSE OUT THERE ESP LUKE.

DON'T GIVE UP YEA? RESULTS YES. IT MATTERS NO MATTER HOW WE DENIED IT. NO WORDS CAN REALLY RESOLVED ANYTHING THAT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED. ESP WITH REGARDS TO SUCH MATTERS. SO HAVE FAITH. YOU KNOW YOU CAN. GANBATTE GANBATTE GANBATTE!!

P.S whats done cannot be undone. yeah. its so cliche. but that's de harsh fact bout it. so........tackle the final exams with faith. hope. drive.
we know we can when we say we can.

GANBATTE LUKE!
GANBATTE GUYS and GALS!

2008-01-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

Went to tampines gym early in the morning today. ...
one hour of workout...kind of short... hehex.. but think they can't tahan anymore.. so we head on to mac for lunch and head to sch for lesson...
sch reopen and lessons are getting so boring!!
results are slowly getting back. dots. B C D? got a stupid D for autocad. yeah. to think i ace at computer programming and sucks at autocad drawing. hahax.. but i passed? hmm. okie.. lolx..
but at least de stupid EPC i got C leh. hmm..must try any how draw nicer to a C grade. lolx..
reports reports reports. hope i get back my drive and finished the reports,both group and individual asap. Ganbatte joyce! hack the gastric flu. wanna vomit jiu vomit den get on with work. okie..dis sucks. lolx..
wanna workout at gym summre!! one day is not enough!! =.=
adios...

2008-01-01T03:36:00.001-08:00

Happy new year! Happy 2008!!
a brand new year, a brand new beginning!
Ytd went for de fireworks performance at marina bay...
met jie at about 8pm. was considering between vivo city and marina bay. but we decide upon marina bay coz of the fireworks and whoo hoo! glad we did not make the wrong choice. hahax..
9.30... ....... squeeze squeeze squeeze..... finally got a place.... behine us is just the merlion itself.. hahax... 10.00..... we sat down on the floor buay tahan liao.... tiring...2 hours more to go....dots..
10.25......1035....by typing the time here is so damn fast, while we were there, its so damn slw......lolx.we are so surrounded by different ethnics group. indians, malays and chinese. some were Caucasians. some were talking, some merely eating and drinking some taking a wink...some kids were fidgeting.. 10.45.......10.50....... jie and i were still sticking close to each other like super glue...throughout the day...but we have some entertainment shown to us by a group of indian guys..lolx.. im surprised i wasn't rebuked by them...=x
11.00....dots...so slow.....11.25.......some idiots behind us began shouting coz someone released a balloon... dots.. =.= jie and i were telling each other they never see balloon before..
den we were "forced" to stand up from our "seats" coz everyone is so curious by the passing ferries... =.=..i somehow don't understand them....and furthermore, fireworks are supposed to be seen up in the sky right...so why bother to go so near the sea? =.=...unless u wanna commit suicide on new year's day la..
15 more mins........another balloon released.......lame shouts......10more mins...hurry hurry! 5 more mins...
ganbatte!! whoo hoo!
then! the moment came. the moment where each and every one of us awaits. every one have the same goal. the same dream at that very very particular moment, dat very min., dat very second.
8 mins of fireworks... whoo hoo! its de loveliest scene i've ever seen...furthermore with jie.... fingers with fingers... hands on hands..
its whoo hoo! i would never forget that very moment. the fireworks is us right before our very eyes!! so near to us! omg.. woooooooo!!
den. faints.we squeezed with the crowd..and become stick-woman..... dots.... but its gonna be a very memorable last day of 2007 with jie.
she and i will never forget it. forever...
after i send her home, i catch a cab home. boy, im so tired... plus im down with gastric flu..and this sucks..
jie and i are gonna countdown again!! whoo hoo!! but for now, get ready to go back sch....
sianz..can i tak MC?? lolx!!

2007-12-30T06:07:00.000-08:00

argh!! got gastric flu again.. yea..again..
i hate this miserable feeling..dots..
okie..i cant continue le...it feels so sucky to wanna vomit every now and then even though i din eat anything..okie.. gastric flu.......u dun hav to eat anything to get dat..dots..
adios..i cant tahan le....sobs

2007-12-29T04:47:00.000-08:00

Just finished two rounds of mahjong. hahax..sit until butt aches..dots...entertaining uncle,aunt and cousin. but in the end cousin lost the most!! hahax...oi..im de youngest leh..lolx..summre mum bcum my atm...giv me money to play...=.= ...when i wanna use my lappie,she sae she gives me money to play...dots.. hahax...
oh gosh...sch is reopening soon..!! why two weeks passed so fast!! wail wail wail...lolx..
wads in hold of countdown 2007??
i wonder.....hmmm.... *shrug*

2007-12-28T04:14:00.000-08:00

Haiyoyo..now watching channel8, a TV gourmet show bahx..with quan yi feng and the chef. its mouth watering!!! they showed the version of "chawamushi" in their own style and its enough to set us going" owwww..." slurrp..lolx..
yum yum.... next up is the police show. ok..i forgotten the eng term for it..lolx.. =x..
but faints..i spend the whole day today after my appointment readin lesley pearse's book "a lesser evil" my favourite authors simply rocks rocks rocks!! hehex..
i can spend my whole day readin my book ignoring anything else. not any kind of books. only by my favourite authors.. hehex.. whoo hoo!
hmm...im wonderin out loud...wads in hold for me for countdown dis year?
o.O

2007-12-27T04:33:00.000-08:00

Christmas has just passed...year 2008 will soon be here...
looking back, it has been a roller-coaster ride for me, for all of us..i believed.
Nevertheless, it has been a fulfilling year for us ryte? God has planned the path, the road, the destined routine for us. Be it good or bad, Up or down, right or wrong, unfair or fair, time goes on.
Time waits for no man. [okie..im getting abit emo here...=.=]

Omg, i just happened to watch "Are you smarter than a fifth Grader?"
those 5th graders wow. they are smart. don't belittle kids. hahax.. Anyway, its a nice show. hahax..should watch it!!

hmm.... wonder whats in hold for me for countdown this year. A brand new year; a brand new start. lolx..do i sound weird or am i trying to convince myself just then? lolx...
well then, i guess year 2008, we await you in open arms!

adios!

2007-12-25T05:11:00.000-08:00

It has been a tired Christmas.
But it was a damn inspiring christmas...went back to church and slided back.
was church hopping and im glad that i did that. really i do. for i believed in Him once more and i would never regret going to church to celeb his birthday this year 2007 with my dear friends.
Even if i were to take the blood test and it turns out negative, at least i know, i did not live my life in vain. i've enjoyed myself much and yup...i would not regret.
God had once again entered my life, and im glad. thanks to luke and alan!! hehex!

here are the photos we took on 21st dec 2007.
[[ im in lala land in every photo....]]

suherman's birthday wish 2007. [ a very long wan]
smiles!!
blow suherman blow!
alan the new waiter...hehex..

nice christmas guys! adios and God bless ya all...owaes...

2007-12-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

Praise the Lord!
i can bend my supposedly fractured finger!!
and and and!!! my red patches that are like so awfully ugly, are getting lighter!!
OMG! i "merely" welcome him back on saturday night and..and..wow.!!!
not that im expecting anything..but...wow!! lolx.. God does wonders?!
wow wow wow
i hav backslided...so as to sae..but i do really intend to slide back...hehex...
*i need to have a breakthrough in my thinking*
*i shall follow Jesus's way*
*i should put my trust in Him*
i do. i do. i do.
lolx...gonna get busy and get my life back!

2007-12-21T19:59:00.001-08:00

It truly was an enjoyable day for each and everyone of us today.
For Luke, Mae, Sm, Roger,Alan,Sam,Yusoff and i.
a tiring, cheesy, hilarious 21st dec 2007. lolx.. nice christmas and luke's bdae in advance.
early noon, i reached at ps breadtalk waiting for sam to arrive. we need to choose the bdae cake and reserve the tables at pizzahut. okie..its abit too early.... furthermore, even though clearly we have made a reservation, when we all arrived at about 4 plus, [the reservation was made to be at 4pm] we still have to wait for mre den ten mins to be seated. erlox? then wads de diff between makin a reservation and not makin one? =.= never mind.but luckily we enjoyed the food[though not de service] and the surprise for luke caught us abit offguard too.=.=
initial plans was that we head towards cinne for kbox-ing. but there seems to be no bdae package during the holiday season. thus, we've gt no choice but to change our plans. but! the main focus is, we did not inform luke about it and let him continue thinking that we are still having kbox-ing,but the venue have changed only. [he blurr until he din realise ps does not have kbox at all =.= =.= ]
lol...
we exchanged our christmas gift and bdae gift for luke and start gobbling down the food. okie..we are damn hungry la!!
and we gave him a surprise with de bdae cake. our very own surprise dat pizzahut gave to us was, they switched off all their lights in de restaurant [letting each and everyone of us thinking that a blackout have occured, or electricity tripped. =.=] but my position was jus nice to see the staff hinting to me bout the cake being ready...at the staff's count of three, we sang de bdae song to luke and he was so paiseh la! lol....but clearly seen he enjoyed himself.
alan finished the whole bottle of cheese!!! lolx..very cheesy christmas la!! well, almost the whole bottle..with some help from yusoff and the rest of us...but alan...is..practically....eating the whole bottle of cheese?! lolx.. =x
at some point of time, we began to sabo de bdae boy. haha...alan added pepper, chilli sauce, tomato sauce, cheese, chilli flakes onto luke's pizza!! with the help of luke's friend, sam. oh gosh. but luke din eat it whole! hehex.. but think he ate some? who knows.......
and some leftover cream on the plate of the cake, with de expert waiter hand, alan uses de knife to jus swipe it across luke's face. lol..pity him... =.=
before we ate the cake, we made an announcement to luke, regarding the kbox. omg..i hide behind mae..i dowan to see anyone's disappointed face..lolx...luckily nth much..i waited till alan finished his announcement before showin my face...lolx...
and must thank sam for paying for the whole cake....so i told luke to give him a cuddle. but then again,no kick, so give him a kiss! lolx...summre dey are wearin couple's suit! omg....its alike la... =x-x
while having our very engaging conversation and at some point of time being entertained by alan's lame jokes and riddles,we had so much laughter, so much so that we find eating is so tiring. =.= lol
then we decided on headin towards de arcade. initially we head up to ps top level where the arcade is..but they dont have de machine i wanna play! lol.. de bashi bashi or wadever dat is called...so we head on to marina square's arcade where its much mre bigger den de one at ps where i promised alan to play daytona with him =.= lol..coz i have to persuade him to change venue =.=
lol...we spend about 2 hours there and had our fun..lolx.. luke and mae are violent creatures!!!! lol..they knw wad i meant. lolx.... =x
after arcade, we are so dehydrated....we head towards 7 eleven to get our drinks where alan, yusoff and mae mixed deir choice of drinks in their big gulp =.= faints.
den we walked towards esplanade...wanted to take photos =.=
kena "sabo" by luke and alan with them singing and shouting to both of my ears, one at each side....and "sabo" by mae by trying to drag me near the sea..... its not de sea im afraid of..its de height .. erlox? den i shouted....its not my bdae today! lolx...but din managed to catch luke =.=
strolled towards de merlion where we thought the venue of our photo taking session should be held there...during the stroll, got freaked out by alan again....=.= was standing in the middle, between luke and alan, with luke walking near the sea...[ we were crossing some sort of a bridge...] alan freaked me out by pushing me towards de sea .... on natural instincts, i screamed and hold onto luke's arms....and squatted down....alan din freak me out once nia..luckily got mae to help me too....phew...
we reached the merlion much to my relief. lol... wanted to escape the photo taking =.= but to no avail....lolx..took some normal and fun shots. great going guys! hahax..
gonna upload em as soon as i get them...
it was indeed a memorable 21st dec. and many more to come soon i bet!
whoo hoo...nice one..love these guys already! hahax..
this is sooooooo long..lolx..

=.= d drive reformatted and i lost everything. wth is access denied!! and c drive leh! dat one cannot reformat it wad... wail...but somehow din feel so much lost coz gt one mre impt matter that i do not wished to disclose is happenin to me. i jus wanna pass the days...........like on 21st dec...will do....think gonna bring to service center soon le....[so far]
faints...................................

finger might be fractured..nice one man joy...wad did u do...lol...as if i kn.....halfwae thru de photo takin i realised my finger hurts whenever i bend it.. =.=
after christmas bahx.... after christmas...
to think i can type all these with my finger pointed up....i cant bend it...=.=
okie...gonna get ready for family gatherin le..........wonder if i still can make it to luke's church...

2007-12-20T05:39:00.000-08:00

argh..sianz..my d drive and c drive access denied! wad de hell?
argh...i din even do anything to it la...faints..now keep having hiccups the whole day...haiyo..my mood is totally ruin! hope i can be all smiles tmr?
faints..waiting for the scan to finish. takin so long la..haix...

2007-12-19T04:57:00.000-08:00

just reached home from jie's house. went "shopping" with her. more like roaming around...lolx!
went to take neos. faints? hahax...one is so shitty de other one...ok...lolx.. jie wanna tak so went along. since durin my bdae, we din managed to tak it.
eh eh eh...my jie is real beauty okie.. lolx.. but must get my approval ferz... lolx.. =.= =.= =.=
ahh!! kinship II is so damn heartbreakening! argh!! was watchin it at jie's house. and i cried infront of her. when de prison officers seperated elvin and jessica ryte after dey kissed and being pronounced man and wife. omg! why must separate them!! omg... other parts though its as heartbreakenin , but only that part made me cry. omg.. my jie was laughing la.. =.=
faints..its so damn sad la! why must separate them! though its jus a drama =.= =.= =.=
haiyo..must control my emotions liao....
okie.im damn hungry now....mornin ate nothing, lunch ate nothing, now 9pm start dinner...whoo hoo. =.= adios~~

2007-12-17T03:58:00.000-08:00

Oh..My..God...
Just finished watching kinship part II. had to watch it no matter what...elvin ng is acting!! gosh..hahax... he mentioned a story in today's episode and oh. my. god. it touches my heart deeply. i believed,for anyone else too.

This is a story about the dinosaur and the ugly duckling.
Once upon a time, there is a dinosaur,who is ugly and weighs over 100kg. Nobody wants to be his friends, everyone is laughing at him,at his weight. Then comes an ugly duckling. Though the ugly duckling laugh at dinosaur and makes fun of him, at least, she is still willing to be his friend.
when the dinosaur turns into a prince, he met his snow white and thus forgotten about the ugly duckling..the ugly duckling, though heartbroken, told the prince kindly that the snow white is wicked and isn't really in love with him. The prince then, blindly in love, chose not to believe ugly duckling. When the true colors of the snow white finally appears, the prince then realised how foolish he was, not to believe the words of the ugly duckling. Moreover, the ugly duckling had turned into a beautiful swan.
Just when things are turning for the better, just when the beautiful swan and the prince are planning to get married, a spell is cast onto beautiful swan. knowing that she is dying, the duckling does not want the prince to see how ugly she is, she refused to meet the prince at all times. The prince was heartbroken. [Who wouldn't be? *sry for the interruption..hehe*].. without any hesitation, he drew out his sword and pierced it into his heart. From that moment, the prince turns back into the dinosaur. the ugly duckling says:" im dying and ugly, why would you still want me? " the dinosaur reply:" Look at me, im bleeding. im no better looking either; you're hurt, but do you realized that im even more hurt? "

the rest is irrelevant. but hey..it's all so romantique!! gosh... lolx..

x'mas is approaching. gosh. schedule packed packed packed packed. where am i supposed to go? how am i supposed to divide myself again? lolx..guess..i just go with the flow bahx.. lalalala...

2007-12-15T08:12:00.000-08:00

You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog.

You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.

And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.

You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy

Music

Theology

Art

History

Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

You Are 7: The Enthusiast

You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.

You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.

Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.

You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

At Your Best: You are deeply involved in each experience. You appreciate life for what it is, and you take the time to enjoy each moment.

At Your Worst: You are greedy, self centered, impulsive, and insatiable.

Your Fixation: Gluttony

Your Primary Fear: Deprivation and pain

Your Primary Desire: To be satisfied and content

Other Number 7's: Howard Stern, Cameron Diaz, Robin Williams, Jim Carey, and Jenny Mccarthy.

What Number Are You?

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable.

You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Scent is Pumpkin Pie

Warm, comforting, and a bit old fashioned

You've got what men want - believe it or not!

What's Your Girl Smell?

okay..i really go nothing better to do... hahax..

2007-12-15T06:31:00.000-08:00

whoo hoo.... 220V on my hair.... i think...lolx..
nothing much to update...yawns..kindna shag..hahax...and sigh...to think that tmr i would have to wake up early in the mornin just for work...even during the hols...wail!!

PS>> boar? u MIA ar?? hmmm.....i guessed...even if i ask it here, boar wouldnt know bahx...
u changed ur nick..hmm....somebody pisses u off? hopefully it isnt me..hehex...

2007-12-14T08:19:00.000-08:00

just reached home. phew...shag..
went to watch golden compass with wj...guess this show have to have a warnin in advance: dun watch this show if u arent prepare to watch part 2 or mre! lolx..
yeah..so de ending is lke no ending...coz dere sure would be a part 2. just like pirates of de carribean....but its not bad bahx..
hahax...as usual...any shopping mall we finished walking quite fast...lolx..faints..im gonna drag him to drink starbucks instead of coffeebean everytym.... next destination: jurong point.
wonder wad is in hold for me dere...faints... singapore is so small...gonna run outta place to go durin de hols if dis continues liao...hahax..
money no enough, tym no enough,phoo! hu cares? im gonna enjoy myself...can njoy even without luxury wad...hehe....
gosh..tmr have to wake up early for appointment....gosh..no sleep for hols too? wail wail wail!!!

PS to wj: bleah!! *sticks out tongue continuously...*

2007-12-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

Finally..4 down...none to go...holidays to come! whoo hoo! yippee!!
lolx.. so different from my other posts. dots.
got mixed up during this sem's common test bahx. last sem, i studied halfwae and jus any-o-how wack the test papers. this sem, i simply studied on the day itself and enter the lecture room. lolx..
just... different feelings for each sem the exams bahx....totally shag man....finally the holidays are here!! though its only for a pathetic two weeks... CONFIRM 31st dec won be coming to sch bahx...lolx!! whee hee!!

good friends, close friends, best friends, they aren't friends who would say goodbye..how true..hehex.. appreciate those who was with me throughout past few weeks... totally needed strength that much. hopefully im up, up and away again! lolx... keeping my fingers crossed...im still feeling borderline down.

:*: Guardian angel :*:

:: Guardian angel ::